Tired of peads~

Poyo gilakk topic..
Not that i'm started to become poyo
And behaving with poyoness
But seyesly peads adalah posting yang sangat2
lah aku xbghape nak gemor
M.O wise ok je..
The workload..
The cases..
Like sh#* wey!
Skang ni xpela gak dah aku
Posting kat SCN (special care nursery)
So case dia pon xdela berat sangat..
Tapi bila fikir yang nanti
Aku kena turun wad 5 (peadiatric ward)
Rase nak buhun diri je..
Jerut ngan tali gantung..
Balik plak siap terlebih2
Nak pass over pon xsampai hati
Slalu mesti nak settle suma dulu
But ntahla
Bila pikior2 balik did others do think like we thought?
Macam x je..
Ada pon macam segelintir i mean yang rapat ngan aku..
So drg pon sacrifice la sket hahaha
Ok ok poyo...
Aku just doa this posting berjalan laju2 sampai aku xpasan
Ntah bulan bila
Tetiba je daabes
Wa hahahahahaha!
( ok gelak gila suda bha!)

Another 2 months of us

So now dah ada orang teman
Bila makan ada orang tunggu..
Not like those days where i eat alone,
Jalan2 pon alone
But at that time aku ada nini so mylife
Was not that alone after all
But skang ni i've lost her
For what reason pon i really don't know
I just wish for her a great future ahead
And a very good day ahead In Syaa Allah

Memang aku skang xdela berubah tragic
Just that slowly adapting
Al maklum sket lagi nak jadi bini orang
Banyak sangat2 nak kne jaga
Not an easy task when u are so used to
Be yourself yang mmg dah sebati
So to change it all in one go mmg la susah kan?



As for him.. Aku bersyukur
Sebab dia faham..
Really do understand me..
And xpaksa pon just that ada la dia nasihat
Yang mana wajib and all
In Syaa Allah
I will try my best k?
I just need sometime to readjust this all

2 months..
Banyak yang jadi..
I'm learning him..
There are so many things i have to learn
How he's thinkin'
The way he solve every probs we had..
And all...
Suprisingly i'm not even pushing myself to like
All those silly things about him..
It just so happen that i really liked
Everything bout him..
So freaking easy.. And i thaked Allah
For all this..

Okay2 my post pon dah banyak berubah lately..
Ye la xde harsh words sgt dah kan?
Haha reality nak buang suma tu..
Adalah SANGAT SUSAH..
And i still am using it
From time to time.. Tapi xdela sekerap dulu..
Haha..
Tipu sangatla cakap aku xmencarut..

Okay2 .. Banyak dah tulis ni..
This is it for now..
Later2 macam nak cakap pasai peads posting..
Mmg dumbfak gila (kan da mencacarut) :P

Hahaha
Okeh2 itu saja..
I love you farhan ~

Semi big Day ~ Engagement Day

Assalamualaikum..

Maka 05-01-2013..

Rasmi dah aku jadi tunangan Jejaka..

Muhammad Farhan Muhammad Idris

It still took m a while to get use to this name

Seriously..

Mende ni suma macam mimpi

macam manalah x kan,

as i said earlier aku ngan Farhan ni

kenal xsampai 2bulan kot..

tau2 je yup tunang..

The best part is..

16-11-13

In Syaa Allah

kami akan dijabqabulkan...

doakan je la eh..

17-11-2013

Reception on my side..

24-11-13

on his side..

semua dah ditentukan time smalam..

yang bestnye aku rase yang nak dekat2 balik

tu barulah nak masuk part seyes2 kan?

before that xdepon..

sembang2 kencang pasai politik la

pasai kerja and pencen la

and other things..

but yang penting skang semua dah lepas

semua dah selesai mmg syukur Alhamdulillah..

11 bulan tu.. lama..

aku sangat berharap kami dapat jaga

hubungan ni..

bukan apa..

byk sangat orang cakap time tunang2 ni lah

macam2 mende jadi..

seyes aku takut..

just banyak berdoa agar dipermudahkan segalanya..

damn excited!!!!!!!

Future awaiting!

En. Tunang.. kalau awak baca ni..

saya nak cakap yang saya rindu awak..

sumpah rindu awak!

rasa macam puasa je!

makan byk pon xkenyang

minum byk pon still dahaga

....

p/s : Susah sebenarnya.. bila hati yang dah rentan dengan longterm..

tetiba datang yang baru offer cahaya..

and you..accept it..

semua ni dari Allah dan aku percaya 

ini yang terbaek untuk aku..

syukurlah..

Excited for Esok ~

Assalamualaikum~

Okay So aku Kenal dia aku amik date 11-11-2012 la..

sebab tu 1st attemp dia untuk msg aku!!

msg dia "Sorry tadi lupa nak bayar balik duit nasik, esok aku bayar"

(actually msg tu dah xde tapi lebih kurang cemni ahh)

Perghhh! dapat2 msg tu balik umah aku trus pengsan..

What? seyesly ? haha.. Last2 aku cakap xpayah..aku banje je

Acewahh Padahal Time tu sengkek gilakkk~

tinggal like RM50 je kot!!! nak tahan sampai ujung bulan!

Sialan sungguh!

So there it goes .. 1st try..

then on 25th November dia cakap dia sukak aku.

actually aku bley pick up from his gestures and all..

but then aku just xnak too confident..

because nnt if silap they (a man) kadang2 just nak wat ko kawan je

and saje bagi subtle hint so that you stick with him..

but bila dia dah ngaku tu sumpah relieve gilakk!

Aku dah memang suka dia!! Then dia sukak aku jugak kah?????

aku igt lagi time tu aku drive balik Ipoh kot..

Rase macam tangan terketar2 bawak keta..

dek kerna happy sangat ada orang confess..

actually ada lagila cerita sebalik tu..

cerita aku dan oreo dan shift 2 kami..

haha~

And now actually aku still tgh try nak digest...

2 months.. of friendship.. dan nak engage!!

I mean aku ngan dia xdela admit we both couple..

xnak pon couple2 ni..

aku dah cakap kat dia and dia pon cemtu gak..

so we just aim for tunang trus je..

then kawen. hahaha..

macam sangat lawak kot~

Kenapa aku citer suma ni dalam blog??

lepak..next post aku cter... my bff avoiding me and all

with no reason..haih..

So yeah~

there it goes..

esok aku tunang sudah!!!!

Muhammad Farhan Muhammad Idris..

yep..

my heart stays with you..

In Syaa Allah..

Till Jannah I hope~

P/s : skang aku dah xbanyak emo da.. stress da..ada dia..

        - my guardian angel.. my bff currently.. my fiancee and In Syaa Allah Future Husband! 

Life's complicated bitch

Bismillah~
lama kan rasanya aku x tulis coret semua benda dalam ni
Sesi carut marut aku dalam gurisan hati pilu aku tu

Now it has been like 6 months in seri manjung
Life so far was keeping up
And guess what..
I have found another man to complete me
Yes kadang2 aku rasa macam bitch gila apa de hal aku ngan laki kan?
Tapi this man.. Orang yang jaga aku..
Orang yang respect aku and most importantly sgt la menjaga soal2 agama
Kemon la aku tau aku sendiri bukan angel, no i am really not but sampai bila ko nak static ngan hidup ko kan?
I need someone to guide me. . In the end the purpose of our existence to achive Jannah Insya Allah..
I might sound hipocrite with all this ye la perangai aku mmg xperfect but if there is someone yang sanggup terima semua Flaws aku... Seriously nak let go ke?
Mmg semua sgt cepat.. Cepat sgt instead.. But my dad sgt la suka kalo mende2 camni bley cepat kan.. Adoiiii

Okeh2 enuff k? Later on i will write another entry just for him..
I mean not for him.. Ntah la merepek besar aku ni
Bersyukur betul la aku yang mende ni kept to be private
...
Nak siap mandi
Keluar
Makan
Sekian!

Hati sudah mati

Not sure why..
Sometimes aku rase Medical Posting yang buat aku rasa camni...
Feels like u have no feeling any whatsoever kalo ada pon not a real true feeling x! Not in love i mean even tho it does contribute a bit of it kan? But in life in interaction with people, i do feel im a bit cold hearted if compare to the 1 st time i have started posting
Now macam err evil ke hah? Or better put it like cold hearted la..
Kadang2 aku slalu rasa aku jadi target in Ward ntah kenapa ntah ! Sakitnye hati ! And for extend tu mmg ada la! Sebab aku rase byk kali gila kena sound and byk gila mistakes aku buat and i still haven't got a grip in medical stress wey! Hari2 pergi ward thinking what case will be in what will happen whats the management itu ini blood taking and all.. But if posting yang worth repeating should be medical la sbb according to my friend you will learn a lot here, xpela aku just mampu berdoa and usaha In syaa Allah boleh kit

Last post for you zakri

Last time..
Cinta 5 hari aku..
dengan manusia bernama
Zakri Ismail..
Took me 1 month and i;'ve lost counts of the days
 to forget him..
Cinta lima hari u and i..
adalah gila..
gila..
ya..
sangat gila!