Back Then..and NoW..

NtahLa..

Mungkin sebab terlalu lama..

(lama ke 4 tahun tu??)

makin lama makin hambar..

aku xtaw la..kan..

but kalo tanya aku..sebenarnye...

kenapa aku still stay ngan dia..even skang ni dah macam sgt sakit..

everyday ada je mnde wat aku marah n in the end aku hurt sengsorang..

Maybe...

Back Then..

i Keep Wishing that...

He will be what he is back then..

On our first date..He give me a red rose

He was so adorable its almost clumsy..

somehow back then i can feel ur heart..

even when it is our first time meeting

Haha~

masa tu nak masuk kedai apa pon xpe..he will be by myside..

watching me..

When it is the month of my birthday..

you keep on asking me what i want, then it was like you can't wait to say or at least be the 1st to say Happy birthday to me...

But now..

Our date..seems like Dateless..

NOthing that we can relate to..

we not talking in the same language anymore..

and..every shop i went is like..a war..hahaha~ (melebey tol)

My birthday pon bley lupa..

Confident gilaaa jawab 16 Feb..haih...

Abang aku pon hafal birthday aku bila k..

and..

even on my birthday..No wishes,No cards nor present..

(yang 2 blakang tu xdela penting sangat..but on 12 o'clock midnite...dia bukanla orang first yang wish aku, call aku..nyanyikan aku lagu ke hapa..)
It's always that..
The thought that counts..

Back then..

he will woke up whenever he hears his phone ringing..

It was like compulsary for me to hear your "waking up Voice" every day..

There was something in it..that i heard.."because i love u lah aku bgn..kalo x jangan harap aku nak bgn sambung tido lagi bagus"

Dah la tu..dia pnah tido kat stesen bas..

just sebab nak tunggu aku fetch dia nanti pagi..

dia amik bas tengah malam..

dalam hati aku rsau gle k..

dia sejuk, makan..and kat ne dia nak tido..

..seyesly..

aku xkan lupa suma mnde baik yang dia pnah wat..

xmungkin akan lupa..

ye la slalu pon cakap aku asik nmpak yang buruk je skang ni..

camne la x..

Dah..Dulu..

awak..

memang..

Lebih Baek 


(yang ada kat atas ni sikit je..ada lagi sgt banyak...
and kalo nak sebut suma..pon xlarat..aku xpnah lupa..
sebab aku chenta dia)

dari sekarang..

so..

what??

u have me now..

then??

no effort??

xde apa dah yang tersisa dari diri awk ke??

xperlu yang besar..

yang sekecik kuman pon aku dah ckup terharu..

i dun know..

maybe because of i know to what extend you will go

to be with me...masa dulu..

wat aku rase sayang nak lepas..

and still hoping that..

that side of u still exist..

and still hoping that...

u are eager to know..

what's now..in my life..

I love u..

and always will be..

That way forever

IsyaAllah

(every tears that i drop..is because i love you dearly and it's hurt me so bad..plz..understand that..)